Today was my first day of training for a 5K! There are a ton of them at the end of May/beginning of June, so I want to be in shape to do a few. The first one is on May 17, and although it might be pushing it to be in my best shape for that one, at least I know I'll be able to run it and run it well. This kind of training is the best way for me to keep myself accountable to my fitness goals. If my goals are simply just "to run" or "to look better in a bikini," then I have a less concrete finish line than if my goals are a specific distance or event, such as a 5K. The newest issue of Runners Magazine has a beginning training program that I'm going to use as my guide.
Other than that, I'm kinda bogged down with work and trying to find a condo. I have walked through a few really nice ones, but there always seems to be something not quite perfect about them. For instance, the perfect-est one was $400,000, which is not a price I'm looking to spend! A few others are in my price range, and are actually nice little places, but too far away from OSU's law school to be feasible. The one I'm looking at at 6:30, on paper, seems perfect. It's in the short north, right in the middle of all my favourite restaurants and bars, and it's a reasonable distance away from OSU. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that this one might work.
Shower-time - I'm sure I'll update later in between work breaks.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
SPRING FINALLY!!!
Like the title says, spring is finally here! I feel much happier and much healthier just being able to go outside and walk around without freezing to death. There's something about a natural environment towards which I feel strongly drawn. I feel like I'm supposed to be there and that it's where I thrive the most. Perhaps this feeling is one of the reasons I decided not to go back to New York City for law school. I miss the city immensely, but I just can't imagine living there for more than a few months at a time. Maybe at some point in my life, but not right now.
The beginning of spring is a perfect time to start, or strengthen, a detoxing regime. I have been ho-humming around starting one for the past few weeks, but I can't seem to find time for myself. It's SO stupid that I can't - every single day I say, "Tomorrow I will clean out my room, " or "Tomorrow I'll go to the store and get what I need to nourish my body," but I never do it. Something else always comes up that causes me to put my needs second. Then, I wonder why I'm so stressed all the time and I so often feel taken advantage of. It's not really that everyone is taking complete advantage of me, but also that I am, in a way, taking advantage of myself. I had a major wakeup call this afternoon, though, and I can tell you, this neglecting my own needs will not happen again. I'm not for being a selfish bitch - it's not like I can't balance what I want with what the people who I care about want, but it's that I refuse to sacrifice that 50% of what I want, even if I kinda don't mind it because I care about the other person so much. I can't have relationships that constantly ask me to give up taking care of myself and meeting even the most basic of my own needs, like having a clean, organized living space.
Beyond that, because I have been neglecting myself, I use the time I should be doing my work to do the other things I don't have time to do and need to do, like laundry or cleaning. I basically get myself way behind, and then I STILL don't do what I need to do to catch myself up because I'm too busy, once again, neglecting myself to make sure others are comfortable and happy. Done.
And, not to anyone's surprise (especially not mine), my diet reflects my state of mind. When I'm stressed and neglected, my diet is reflective of it - I eat crappy, easy to make food because I'm too exhausted mentally to prepare things that are good for me. If I ever want to reach any of my goals, I can't continue like this.
Something has to change.
And I hope it can be an easier change rather than me having to make difficult, painful, or unwanted ones.
The beginning of spring is a perfect time to start, or strengthen, a detoxing regime. I have been ho-humming around starting one for the past few weeks, but I can't seem to find time for myself. It's SO stupid that I can't - every single day I say, "Tomorrow I will clean out my room, " or "Tomorrow I'll go to the store and get what I need to nourish my body," but I never do it. Something else always comes up that causes me to put my needs second. Then, I wonder why I'm so stressed all the time and I so often feel taken advantage of. It's not really that everyone is taking complete advantage of me, but also that I am, in a way, taking advantage of myself. I had a major wakeup call this afternoon, though, and I can tell you, this neglecting my own needs will not happen again. I'm not for being a selfish bitch - it's not like I can't balance what I want with what the people who I care about want, but it's that I refuse to sacrifice that 50% of what I want, even if I kinda don't mind it because I care about the other person so much. I can't have relationships that constantly ask me to give up taking care of myself and meeting even the most basic of my own needs, like having a clean, organized living space.
Beyond that, because I have been neglecting myself, I use the time I should be doing my work to do the other things I don't have time to do and need to do, like laundry or cleaning. I basically get myself way behind, and then I STILL don't do what I need to do to catch myself up because I'm too busy, once again, neglecting myself to make sure others are comfortable and happy. Done.
And, not to anyone's surprise (especially not mine), my diet reflects my state of mind. When I'm stressed and neglected, my diet is reflective of it - I eat crappy, easy to make food because I'm too exhausted mentally to prepare things that are good for me. If I ever want to reach any of my goals, I can't continue like this.
Something has to change.
And I hope it can be an easier change rather than me having to make difficult, painful, or unwanted ones.
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